listening:: "ride" - the vines
Life is messed up.
I'm falling falling falling and there's nothing there to catch me and my life is on fast-forward and there's no stopping it now because the lies are real and the people aren't and I can't see anything anymore it's like I'm floating in this space with nothing nothing nothing and I know it's just because I'm crazy selfish crazy selfish. I just want to kill someone but not myself because I keep thinking that maybe it will end and this sling shot richochet runaway bullet will hit a wall and come to a stop but I can't stop my mind from thinking all these pointless thoughts and I'm screaming to get them out but no one's listening. Perhaps this is karma, because I never really listened to them either because I've been so crazy selfish crazy selfish and if I thought about you maybe I'd feel better but nothing stops this emptiness. I stopped eating candy. That's my problem - I've left my blissful blissful sugar high. Maybe my whole past was one great big delusional sugar high.